Coyo

 I had an MRI today. It's both a boring and unnerving experience. It's unnerving in the same way putting your head in the jaws of a tame lion is. There's a lot of energy in that machine.

It makes a lot of clicking noises, in a regular drumming tattoo of 8 beats. Sometimes its a hum, sometimes its alternating low and higher tapping. At some points (setup, I think) it sounds like a hard drive spinning up.

You lay down there , trying not to move your head at all for 20 minutes while this is going on. It felt like some of the hairs on my head were on end during the last phase of it.

"So, you've seen a bunch of these. Mine's pretty normal?"

The technician paused "you'll have to talk to the doctor about that, I'm just a technician."

Then she added. "So how bad was the concussion you had at age 6?"

Driving back, I noticed the inside of a restaurant that I'd passed by many times before. Never had been inside. Looked cute, but is a fish place. I also noticed an empty lot that I passed many times before. It looked to me like I was noticing it for the first time, seeing it. I wonder if the experience had me thinking so much about thinking that I shook something loose just from the though.

 In high school. I was in the chess club.

 One of the people there was new to chess. He wasn't very good. In fact, he'd lose his Queen early on in the game.

 Seemed to always happen, but he kept with it and eventually he was regularly winning games without the Queen. He became one of the most formidable players.

 Odd to have this memory now. I have so few from high school, and no clear ones. It's more a memory of a memory; I don't remember the names of anyone in the club, what they looked like or what the teacher's name was who hosted it. 

(meant to post about 2 weeks ago)

 Spent the day doing simple chores. Trimmed the hedges, changed the oil in the cars and snaked on leftover homemade lasagna. It was a busy day, though not much of note happened with it.

I feel like we are so far from having a comfortable place with space for things to happen. We still need to have a housewarming party. There are still boxes without homes nestled here and there.

fenowyn is sick with what I had the previous weekend. Not a fun thing.

I'm an cousin again. My cousin is a dad. He and his wife will make excellent parents.

 Spent the day doing simple chores. Trimmed the hedges, changed the oil in the cars and snaked on leftover homemade lasagna. It was a busy day, though not much of note happened with it.

I feel like we are so far from having a comfortable place with space for things to happen. We still need to have a housewarming party. There are still boxes without homes nestled here and there.

fenowyn is sick with what I had the previous weekend. Not a fun thing.

I'm an uncle again. My cousin is a dad. He and his wife will make excellent parents.

I miss LJ and will have to follow it again. I like it much better than facebook.

I'm practicing mindfulness meditation, usually not with too much success. When I manage to be sucessfull at it, it seems pretty simple.

When people are taught to meditate, they are told to clear their minds. This seems to me to be a mistake as it implies action. It is like telling someone to stop the ripples in a pond from moving.

'Clear you mind' is a goal but not a thing you can be doing.

Sit somewhere quiet; outside stimula causes ripples. At the seat of your consciousness, listen to you mind and thoughts as you would listen to music. If you find yourself thinking new thoughts, climb up your consciosness and listen to them. They might start other thoughs and that is all right. Just listen. It is even okey to think 'I am listening to my thoughts' so as long as you climb your focus, your seat of being, just a little bit higher than them.

They may settle eventually. Then you are in a calm state and can stay as long or as short as you like.

If they don't settle, that is okey. If you have listened to them at all as an observer of yourself, you have succeeded in some mindfullness. If you have not, then you have suceeded at being thoughtful over some issues important or amusing to you.

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We are all so very close to the end. Not even an inch away from the bubble like barrier that is the edge of the universe.
We have no muscles to reach, to go this direction.

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Ok, agentanderson 's page. It looked fun so I took it. A bit detailed for a quiz such as this, but oddly, I think it nailed it to a reasonable degree.</p>

I Am A: True Neutral Human Wizard (6th Level)


Ability Scores:

Strength-13

Dexterity-10

Constitution-12

Intelligence-14

Wisdom-13

Charisma-12


Alignment:
True Neutral A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction.


Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.


Class:
Wizards are arcane spellcasters who depend on intensive study to create their magic. To wizards, magic is not a talent but a difficult, rewarding art. When they are prepared for battle, wizards can use their spells to devastating effect. When caught by surprise, they are vulnerable. The wizard's strength is her spells, everything else is secondary. She learns new spells as she experiments and grows in experience, and she can also learn them from other wizards. In addition, over time a wizard learns to manipulate her spells so they go farther, work better, or are improved in some other way. A wizard can call a familiar- a small, magical, animal companion that serves her. With a high Intelligence, wizards are capable of casting very high levels of spells.


Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail)

posting from the airport. hope thid works

There was a fly on the wall, and I shot it with a rubber band. It left a red mark.